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Cassandra Dongshio Choi
04 May 2017 @ 03:00 am
I write this post on this long forgotten space of mine as I now inch closer to the day I graduate from college. I realize that I only seek this space when I have something on my mind that I want to say, and want to remember that I said

In the blink of an eye, four years have passed since I moved to the US of A to pursue my degree(s). It is scary how a journey that seemed so long and arduous is already coming to an end without me even realizing it. I used to have the perfect notion of my future life - I'd graduate from college and find the perfect job that would earn me all the cha ching $$$ and then get married and have my first kid by the time I'm 25. Now that I am at that point in my life I'm thinking, there's no way I'm going to achieve all that right now, that's too soon. But somewhere 10 years ago the young me had so much faith in the now me and so much hope for the future. It's funny how uncertainty eats at you and sucks you of all the hope and self-worth you have.

On the other hand, I'm still grappling within myself to try and accept that the education part of my life is coming to an end, and it is time, whether I like it or not, to move on to the next dreadfful stage - the work life aka real adulthood. I'm only two weekends away to graduation and that scares me to no end. What am I supposed to do now? Now I can't blame every mistake or folly on the fact that I am a student, my job status is now "unemployed" instead of "student", I can't live my partially worry-free, carefree life anymore, I have to learn to keep to a schedule and sleeping early. The list goes on and the number of changes creeping into my life is going to increase by the minute. There's so much more I wanna do in school that I have never done and will never get the chance to anymore; I don't know specifically what they are, but I know there are so many more things I could've done in my four years.

Oh well. "It's all part of growing up", they say. But what does growing up really entail? - is what nobody ever tells you.

Smoke a j and move on.
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Cassandra Dongshio Choi
19 November 2015 @ 11:43 pm

Yes, life is complicated and Dongshio wants some privacy sometimes so...
Current Location: Singapore, Singapore
Current Mood: sillysilly
Cassandra Dongshio Choi
21 October 2015 @ 01:11 am
I don't know when it started feeling like a chore documenting my life and feelings in this space
I always swear that I'd be more diligent in updating but who am I kidding, I'm the laziest person in the world and I'd rather spend my free time on Netflix (and chill)/online shopping/sleeping tbh (not like I've been having free time lately)
Life's been hectic - but only in a good way
Been exploring, doing things, involved and everything cool
And as I'm typing this my ears are still ringing from the New Politics + Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness concert I just went to
Okay that's all I have to say for now bye
Cassandra Dongshio Choi
04 May 2015 @ 01:28 am
I've come to realize that the only times I recall having a blog are when I have an impending exam aka bleagh and when I'm high/intoxicated. Right now I'm facing the impending bleagh that's going down in about 13 hours. It took me the whole day just to read three chapters today, and in the past year I've been starting to suspect if I actually do have ADHD because I find great difficulty in focusing/concentrating on one thing and thus I take three times the "normal" time needed to accomplish a task. I'm also suspecting I did something to my shoulder because it's been aching so badly/cracking a lot lately - so much that it's actually affecting normal life. Then again I'm not very normal...

Life's been good and the countdown to summer officially begins. Three more weeks of school! Kind of looking forward to being young, wild, and free but I don't have a solid plan for summer yet and it's getting worrisome... Someone help get my life together please, thanks.

Speaking of getting my life together, though. I finaly started running after almost a year long hiatus and boy does it feel good. But sshhhhh my therapist doesn't know so gotta keep it on the DL. Can't wait to get back in shape and get back to training. Until next time, CONQUER :)

P.S. I'm in love with Big Bang's new song

Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: Loser - Big Bang
Cassandra Dongshio Choi
29 April 2015 @ 10:48 pm
I was here
Life is good
Stay chill
Cassandra Dongshio Choi
20 April 2015 @ 03:11 am
Finally got done editing this today!
Here is my five days in London, compressed in four minutes.
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Cassandra Dongshio Choi
15 February 2015 @ 06:51 pm
I decided it was imperative I took a break from reading to update this space
Let's see where I left off...
Basically Fall semester has long past, so has my long ass winter break(1.5 months of loafing around, mang)
I'm about to go into my third week of Spring semester aka my fourth semester here at Chapman and I took on the challenge of taking six classes(18 credits) this semester
Things have been going well so far except that I'm buried in piles of (very dry)reading
Which is also part of the reason why I'm here instead of with my books

Chinese New Year is happening in four days and pictures of people having reunion dinners and yummy yusheng has been popping up on my Facebook and Insta feed for about a week now
I can't deny that this is making me homesick
Yes, Cass actually feels homesick
My distaste for home is actually helpful in my time here because then I wouldn't waste time moping around crying for mommy and char kway teow and laksa and shit
But Chinese New Year is one of the ocassions I really love
I love shopping for decorations with my mom and decking our house in them
I love choosing what food I want to eat for reunion dinner and making my mom cook them for me
I love shopping for new CNY clothes with my mom
I love helping my grandma clean her house in preparation for CNY
I love pigging out on all the CNY goodies
Basically it's the one time of the year I get to spend all my time with my family and I love it
Just typing this is making me choke up but yeah it's an emotional time for me being 8806.5 miles away from home on my favorite ocassion of the year

In any way
I spent three weeks in Seoul over January and made a blog

Gotta get back to reading now before I lose all my motivation
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Sugar - Maroon 5
Cassandra Dongshio Choi
05 October 2014 @ 01:38 am
Hellooooo it's been helluva long time but I'm back again
Just got past two midterms in the past week and now I'm preparing for the avalanche of essays that await me
That said, I spent my Friday doing absolutely nothing cause I decided I needed a break after a week of toiling for my midterms
Got dinner at The Cheesecake Factory with the bae because good food is always the best way to reward oneself, duh
Had prime dinner conversations about everything under the sky
Headed to a kickback after that and got smashed

Today I woke up, hangover free - to my surprise
Cooked, did my laundry, napped, and watched three movies just cause I'm a lard
Now it's 1.33AM on Sunday morning and I'm determined to at least get some work done before heading to bed so I don't feel like I totally wasted my Saturday
Yeah. College life.

Haven't done the exercises my PT wanted me to do for my knee for two days now....... Probably slowing down the progress but oh well
Lard life is real
What else...
Got myself my first(and second) Quay sunglasses...
Shopping for coats on ASOS in preparation for the NY winter...
There was a shooting outside Dodge a week ago...
I've been craving a good burrito for weeks now.............

K I should go bye
Current Mood: embarrassedembarrassed
Current Music: 아까워(Ft. 개코) - 에픽하이
Cassandra Dongshio Choi
20 September 2014 @ 12:41 am
Hello I'm finally back
Totally forgot about the existence of this space until like 5 minutes ago

I've been back in the US of A for almost a month now and we're going into the fourth week of school
Oh how time flies
Been wasting away my time just rotting on my couch watching Netflix/HK dramas/Korean reality shows cause I screwed up my knee in the first week of school
After three long weeks of waiting on doctors and scrambling around the OC for doctor's appointments, I found out today that all the shitty handicappedness was caused by my knee cap going out of place. Wow.
Old age is real

Can't wait to get well soon so I can:
1. Get back to training
2. Start exploring Cali again
3. Go to Disneyland
4. Work out more than just push ups/planking/sit ups

Feeling like life is just passing me by as I sit on this very couch
Hate being inactive/doing nothing with my life
Really excited to go back to training after all the shit stuff I hafta do, but then again I don't wanna risk my knee cap moving out of place again///surgery...

Sigh pie.
That down feeling you get when you're so helpless in your situation and you can't do the one thing you love most cause your body doesn't allow you to....................
What is life?

////Positive thinking
I'm gonna bounce back 100000x stronger
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Maps - Maroon 5
Cassandra Dongshio Choi
06 August 2014 @ 12:29 am
And in the blink of an eye, I only have two more weeks left in Singapore
Was so reluctant to come back for such a long period of time
But now that it's almost over, it seemed too short
Don't wanna leave my friends, my family, my comfy home
Just wanna stay here and go for training every day
Meet the people I love every other day
Eat all the delicious food every day (then train hard the next day to shed the calories)

And so that whole pre-departure ritual starts again... :'''''(
In due time this too shall pass?
Current Location: Singapore, Singapore
Current Mood: nostalgicnostalgic