I hate overthinking
But sometimes I just can't help it
I was born to think
And I think so deep that sometimes I scare myself
Not trying to suggest a high level of intelligence here maybe just some sort of a mental illness


SAT scores came out 2 days ago
And that got me thinking
I'm so vexed right now it's not even funny
My future seems so bleak
I really love music and it really inspires me, but sadly I don't have the talent nor skills to pursue that dream
Film and TV is a medium I really love
Because it changes lives
At least it changed mine
The way I think, act
My current job is... boring
I wanted something out of media
But this job is restricting me
Ties me down
Forces me to be orderly, routine, military like
But inside me is someone dying to break out of her shell
To explore the countless possibilities
To enjoy music and films
To create 

I personally feel that pursuing my passion is my goal in life
But when people with practical and business-thinking minds look at me, they start bombarding me with the cons and how I won't be able to even feed myself in future
Then again, it boils down to practicality
Life
How do I live it?
How should I live it?
Dreams or reality?

I'm sure that somehow I'll be able to make it
By living an interesting life with nothing like boring routines, carefree and fun, inspiring, not be forced to lead life and think a certain way and yet still be able to feed myself

FUCK THIS FUCK LIFE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE IT

Been setting up at the new store for 4 days straight now
It feels so awesome to see how a totally empty store is now filled with fixtures and even some clothes
And knowing that you and your buddies did all that :"""""")
OMG IT'S LIKE WATCHING A BABY GROW UP


K anyways I'm shagged as hell and I really need to hibernate but noooooo I'm working the morning shift tomorrow
Good job Dongshio

GRADUATION IN 2 DAYS, JKYUN AND MIB IN 3 DAYS <3<3<3 
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Work today was super fun!!!!!
Spent my time roaming around the shopfloor talking to Nikuz and friendzxzx homiezxzxz
AND THERE WAS THIS REALLY COOL AND GHETTO CUSTOMER LIKE Y'KNOW IN DA HOUSE YO OMG SO HOT PLOX
Then... did cash up AGAIN srsly getting sick of money(kidding)
AND THEN LALA-ED AND ENDED WORK AT 12.30AM AND ALL OF US STUCK IN THERE WERE FREAKING CRAZY AND HIGH AND SANG ALONG TO KPOP OMG KPOP
Yes, calm down Dongshio
I can't believe I know the lyrics DON'T JUDGE ME


Okay the coke high is still in me
Better gtfo of here now~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Bought a pair of watermelon shoes today hehe yay omg I luvvvvvvvvv themmmmmmmmmmm *_______*
I REALLY WANNA BUY THE NAVY SHOE WITH THE YELLOW STRIPE AS WELL OMG VANS WHY YOUR NEW COLLECTION SO MAGNIFIQUE~~~~~~

Anyway going back to Ion to train for 2 weeks starting tomorrow omg MA HOMIES 

I've started work back at Uniqlo for like about 2 weeks now and I'm starting to get the hang of it(again)
The enthusiasm's still fresh and present but I can't promise it'll stay like this after about a month
Attended my first kickboxing class last week and discovered muscles I've never knew were there
It was fun nonetheless

Meh
Life's boring as Sherlock always says
My back's aching really bad
I'm undecided on my major in university and where to apply to
I'm quite sure I'm going to flunk my SAT which I'm about to take in 2 weeks
My brain cells are all over the place I can't even subtract 28 from 75 quick enough
All those years of abacus and arithmetic classes gone to waste sigh


Anyways
Work tomorrow at 7 fucking pm I mean who the fuck travels for one fucking hour to work a 4.5 hour shift
Waste of time, travel fare and energy

Back from my last escapade to Thailand with mommy so I have nothing else to look forward to anymore
Rewatching the old WGM videos now instead of doing math just cause
I love the old couples like AlSin or the Lettuce couple :3
I wish I could marry someone like Alex he's like the perfect man!


Feeling so lost after being overseas for the past 2 weeks so I'm still in the process of trying to get back into my regular life on this boring little island
Already have plans for the next two days so that's a start!

Really need to find some sort of goal in life 

Kinda miss school and shoots

Hello hello I'm back!
Still feeling the fatigue despite my 12 hour sleep
(from 7am this morning till 7pm in the evening)

Missing Shanghai and the lovely people very much